Why This Blog?

I often wonder about this as well. When I started this blog in 2017, I had recently emerged from a very difficult period in my life. The original idea was to use this blog as a means of keeping myself busy while making sense of what had happened before and (maybe) why. If the blog also simultaneously generated a semi-passive income to some extent through advertising, affiliate links and future collaborations, then so much the better.

 

The lulling stupidity of ignorance can be bliss sometimes. It took me the first two or so years of blogging to realise I no longer possess the drive, inner stamina and emotional resilience to make blogging a viable and profitable career. Nor the IT skills, SEO knowledge and technological resources. Or the will power or interest to acquire these technical skills.

 

On top of the above, during 2019, I also assumed a new long term responsibility that increasingly sapped my emotional and spiritual resources. In addition, it gobbled up increasingly significant slices of my personal time too. How often have I not blindly charged into significant obligations with total ignorance of the immediate and future demands and consequences?

 

The short introduction above is simply a means of saying (and confirming to myself) that the purpose of my blog changed along with me. Last year, I fulfilled my recent responsibility. I am now truly free, at last. There are no more tethers. The few remaining obligations in my life are purely by my own choice. Which is a liberating and grand awareness.

 

When I realised my blog was not going to be a commercial success or a new career path, I eventually recognised that it can become a mechanism for redemptive self therapy. So it has and such it still is. I am writing mostly for myself, particularly the more introspective and philosophical posts. I am writing to make sense – and understand – of what happened in my life up till recently. The whys, the hows, the causes, the universe’s role and their effects on me and, by extension, those nearest to me. Also – and importantly – how did those nearest to me contribute to shaping and moulding me into what I am today? Why did my life turn out as it did and not as I had so carefully planned it with the blazing stupidity of youth at its formal beginning? Looking back, it seems the only real constant in my life is – indeed – change. And I hate change. Fervently.

 

In many respects I've lived (and still lives) an unremarkable and, possibly, even dull life in the real world. I have studiously avoided excitement, adventure, risk and physical challenges. There were no unexpected journeys. Because I live in my head, my adventures and journeys were in the emotional and spiritual realms. The inner world we all have (to varying individual degrees) and so carefully keep hidden away – our true selves.

 

Possibly, my blog is also a small opportunity to convince myself that maybe my emotional and personal sacrifices redeem me to some minor extent from my many past infractions and little evils (mostly unintentional). If there is some kind of hereafter, I shall hopefully be measured by my scars and what I have done, and achieved over the years for the betterment and support of those nearest to me. Only time will tell.

 

The long winded deliberation above is why my blog is also a small legacy project. Once I've shuffled unobtrusively off this mortal coil in the not so distant future, I shall quickly be forgotten. This is in order, I prefer it so. Hopefully this mostly random collection of snapshots of my life, travails and the worlds – real and spiritual – I inhabited will exist on a little while longer in some dusty nook of the internet

 

Maybe someone can find something of value in my experiences to enrich their own life with, or find a little solace for the challenges they face in their life? And if you can find some respite in my writing from the daily roar of the world in your life, then that is perfectly in order and very grand too.

© RS Young, 2024

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